so i haven't written a journal in over a year. i have been good, experiencing life. lots of new work ill have up soon as i get my scanner installed again. i have moved a lot. to Washington and back to Kansas. and im working on school again.


ive been contented with life for the most part. i hope everyone else is doing well.

so i know this update has been a long time coming. but here is how things have been going lately.....


GREAT!!


so i should be receiving my new sets of copic markers in the mail soon. yes my first e-bay purchase BUT hopefully they will be in good condition. so that means new updates and more work. i had to reformat so im without photoshop and my scanner is in Kansas so thats all getting changed now soon too. thats right ill be home on the 27th to get my car my mac and my kittens!! whoooooo.


life here is going really well. i love Washington. its definitely a different pace to life. i can get away from all the negativity that was dragging me down. and Chris makes me super happy. he does everything he can for me and really encourages me in my art and my happiness.

i leave in one day. pack my life up and move halfway across the country. to a dream island. with a dream guy. and a dream job. its like too perfect. i keep waiting to wake up, to figure out whats wrong with this picture. but i also hope i never do.

i was worried about school for a while and then i realized. i was doing it for the wrong reasons. living my life for the wrong reasons. i was going to prove my dad wrong and make him love me and tell me he was wrong. but you know, he never will. i mean i could be miserable and graduate and stuff and life a "normal" life but i really dont want to. i want to be happy, and when he told my sister his tractor was more important than seeing us i realized we would never change him, and he never really loved us. but that doesnt mean i dont deserve to be loved. forever it seems im just dating whoever asked me out because i didnt wanna be alone and i always thought ill never find anyone better but. i can, and i have. so im not so worried about diving into the unknown anymore.

ive got sketches done, just gotta get them uploaded without corrupting them. and ill have lots of new pictures of there, and work cause ill have the time to art again. it will be fantastic.

im pretty happy with life. and im going to make decisions for me from now on that make me happy. i realize i dont have to make others happy, if they are miserable all i can do is be there and they have to solve their own problems.


i still love all my friends and its always good to have them around. you make me happy those who care about me. its always good to know you are loved.




anyway- to new beginnings

ill be able to fly on my own wings.

So, here i am UPDATING this bitch with a massive overload of images. and im already getting faves out the ass! i love it. and i love being an artist. nothing will keep me from sharing my work ever agian.

I FREAKING LOVE YOU GUYS


hahaha life is going well if you wanna find out more go journey to my Myspace ... that way i dont have to double post shit.


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its been soo long i forgot what it was like to be loved.

Sometimes the end is nothing like you expected

anyone notice ive stoped posting artwork or anything serious here? it was because i didnt have time, but its become a breached corner of the internet, therefore i use it to push buttons.... enjoy having your buttons pushed.

Some people derserve to die
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